June 8, 2006
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Perhaps I Blog Too Much
(a scattered blog in which I use bullet points despite my love-hate relationship with them)
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The things that make me sigh and grumble:
my father has had a reccurence of bladder cancer
my lawn is too big for me to cut with the mower when Trev is away (it’s 3+ acres)
I paid someone to cut it and he mowed down my Peony, rhubarb, entire Echinacea bed and Campenula plant which was just about to flower.- I put the second coat of stain and 1st coat of poly on the living room floor and now we are “landlocked” in the far end of the house and it rains and rains and rains. We cannot get to the bathroom/kitchen without going out in the rain and I’m beginning to think this was a mistake.
I miss my husband
it is always hard the last few days when he is gone a month or more (5 days left)
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Amusements and distractions
- distraction, thy name is ginger twist
- just figured out how to lay planks across the newly done floor and now we are ”pirates on the move” (and oh-so-much-happier)
- homemade bread toasted with wild grape jam
- season 1
![[Cover Art for Muppet Show: Season One (4pc)/(Rmst Rstr Spec) / Muppet Show: Season One (4pc) / (Rmst Rstr Spec)]](http://www.cdconnection.com/covers/1055006.jpg)
- Placo bubble maker (creates 1000′s of bubbles in minutes)
I may have lost my Peony but I still have my bubble-bush
after Trevor gets home, we will be getting one of these
(this will be big, really, really big; I will cry endlessly and it will be heaven.)
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Bonus
look, it’s me with a ginger twist!
I’m really more of a Mary Ann kind of girl, though.
well, except for the flat stomach.
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“This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
come momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing.”
~Rumi
Edited to add: THIS makes me cry…
(courtesy of my friend Scrappitydoodah)
Comments (46)
Oh, you look so gorgeous with the ginger twist! Puppies are divine. I’m so excited for you!
I love you bunches, and hope the next five days are easier than you expect.
I love that color on you. Is her stomach really flat? I think it popped out right after the picture was taken. :giggle: We moved 3,000 miles away from our parents and then had kids. They really miss their grandparents. They even adopt other grandparents frequently at playgrounds. However, whenever my parents have gotten a glimpse of my life that lasted longer than 3 days, the :nono: and :wha: have reared their ugly heads. Intellectually, I know that I don’t need their approval, but emotionally and physically and perhaps, spiritually, I yearn for it. It took a long time for me not to feel guilty for doing things my way. If there was someone who was looking into how I spend my day to fix how I do things, to make me more efficient, I would just explode. My parents want my children to go to school so I will go to work and be something more. I know that. They think that I couldn’t possibly be living a full and healthy life alone with the boys. They think that there is not enough discipline and order and structure… They would think that regardless of how much exposure they got to our lives because they only see what will fit their hypothesis. Your husband really lets you be you. That is obvious by the pages of this blog. We have that in common. It feels so great to have someone just let you be and love you regardless. I hope you can resolve this issue SOON because I get the sense that it is really weighing on you. :heartbeat:
Hang in there mama…..hoping the last five days FLY!!! Love the ginger twist:heartbeat:
You look so beautiful! That puppy is just a little booger head!…(Booger head is a compliment at our house!)
I am sorry you are having a tough time, I wish I could really (((hug))) you sweetheart! I adore you, your family, your house/home, your booger head puppy, your mowed over peony and that incrediably rare bubble bush!
Wow!! Love the hair!! I undestand your dilemma with the floor. I did the same thing. I was angry when I did it though so I wasn’t operating according to a plan
I was very upset about my husband’s willingness to buy wall to wall carpeting, only to rip it out and buy new every few years. Such a waste of money so that he and the kids didn’t have to use a little caution by removing shoes or not eating in the living room. Ugh. So the last time we took up the carpeting I painted the floor (plywood) and now use scatter rugs. Someday I’ll have decent furniture :fun:
I would actually rather have easy care stuff though. You seem to have kept yourself busy during your husband’s absense and won’t he be surprised at the new look? I think you are a very fun person and are a great parent. Ignore the Mom.
sounds like my mom!
that hair color is perfect for you. it really brings out your eyes. you look gorgeous!
i would kill anyone who mowed down my plants. wtf? couldn’t they observe that they flowers were bigger than the rest of the lawn? i hope it wasn’t a professional lawn service and i hope you got a discount for that huge mistake.
5 more days! wow. that went quickly. glad he’ll be home soon!
hang in there. *I* dont think you blog too much
beautiful pix of you, love the hair clips!
love the ‘do
and while I know it’s not much help, *I* think you are a superlative mother.
stellas_terra: ahem, quickly for YOU maybe…:wink:
for me? not as fast as I’d like
Gorgeous color! Color is wonderful!!!
You are absolutely inspiring, despite all our woes, you always radiate beyond them! {hugs}
p.s. and I love your bubble bush! :p
Your hair looks lovely!!!!
well, i’ll tell ya, i love it how much you blog. you’re on the other side of the u..s and the other side of the parenting gig (i mean yours are little, mine not so much anymore) and every time i come here i smile. that’s quite a gift you’ve got there, girlie. :heartbeat:
I agree with formerprincess – I love how much you blog. The hair looks great, the puppy is adorable, the kids are having fun, the Mom needs to be nice, and Trevor needs to get home. There – thats that :sunny: ((Hugs))
Put your mom to work mowing the lawn next time.
That’s my fear. If anyone other than my husband mows the lawn, he will mow down all of my little trees, my neglected comfrey, my bamboo….
Good luck with the puppy. Every time I’ve gotten a puppy, I’ve sworn I’d never get one again.
Oh, hon. ((((((((Big hugs))))))))
Your hair looks lovely! Your mom is being selfish and not real quick on the uptake lol. I hope the time flies till hubby is home. It’s hard I know.
As if I didn’t say enough, I do want to add that I hope your father comes through this bout in flying colors… and I grew up with two black labs. I love them!
Your hair is stunning, I love it!
The last few days are the hardest. When Gary would go away when he was in the Army, those last few days were always awful.
I think you are a great mama. I’d like to be more like you. I agree with a previous commenter that you should let her mow the lawn next time. It’s much harder to have a conversation that way. :p
Love to you.
You look beauteous
Sorry so many things bummed you out today… don’t bubbles always make it better? :sunny:
I love that video… one of my professors in grad school (for spec. ed) read that to us at one point, I think. I want to share it with all of my co-workers who think every child in our self-contained special education classes should conform to the same mold. I definitely have at least one of each of those animals in my class!!
Love the hair!! And a puppy- how exciting! Can’t wait to see pics!
Julie–Thank you for the link to my blog. I love The Animal School! It made me cry, too.
I don’t spank my kids anymore. Sometimes they act up, but no more so than my sister’s kids, who are spanked. If ever I call her or my mom and tell them about a bad day with the kids, the advice is ALWAYS “I’d bust their butts!”
A lot of times, I can track back my day and see that misbehaviors would have been avoided if I would have been paying more attention to my kids in the first place.
I love your blog.
PS: So, so very sorry to hear about your dad.
Your hair looks terrific.
I *love* your hair!!!!! And thanks for linking to the Animal School video; I haven’t decided whether I want to homeschool or not, but I think this is a great explanation of why to do it.
I’m sorry about the mom troubles. Several weeks ago I had to ask my mom to stop trying to explain to me why kids ( families ) should be “discouraged” from dining in restaurants at certain times. I so violently disagree with her and all it says about current attitudes towards families … not to mention that this is the antithesis of how we were raised as children in our family. I hope your talk with your mom is fruitful … or its out to the mower with ya!
your hair looks lovely. Im sorry to hear about your dad, and that your mom is still causing so much heartache. I know how big it will be for you to have a dog agin, Im so excited for you! :love:
Your hair looks great. congrats on your decision to get a puppy, I know it must hurt after the loss of your dog, but it is so good to love again.
That color is YOU! It’s beautiful. It really warms up your skintone. Not that you didn’t look warm before…just now you’re all toasty! :sunny:
I wish I could give you a great big hug. I’m sorry about your dad. I know that must weigh heavily on your heart. And your mom. *sigh* Sounds like you need to sit her down and talk about it. She probably thinks she’s being helpful.
I’m anxious for Trevor to come home to you, too. I can’t imagine how much you and the kids must miss him. We all start losing it a lil bit after 10 days apart. That is too long.
Oh, puppy lust! I have serious puppy lust.
Think they have Yorkie-Poo’s at the shelter???
ooo-la-la! You look absolutely divine!
Yeah for puppies! Baby-anything’s are wonderful, even frogs!
I’m sorry about your dad as well and wish your mom could find a way to express herself in a less hurtful way, and in a way that said what was really bothering her, instead of squabbling about issues that aren’t the issue, but doing so just because they are “safe”. Why do people do this? Oy! Peace, peace, peace to you sweet mama!
You look good! Wish I knew what to do with mine
No you don’t blog too much – I visit you and a few others way TOO OFTEN – yep, that is more like it
Your mom….. sounds like someone familiar? OH! My mom!!!
I went into your “this makes me cry” and subscribed! Will see if I can catch them to see if I could put it on my Xanga. Thanks for that one! It is helping me with ideas on what to do with my son this summer.
I am so SORRY to hear about the plants!!! ugh!!! I have had that happen to me…It really sucks!
Ginger twist… Saucy!
(still in shock over someone mowing over your peonies…)
Argh! My comment went into the Xanga void!!!!!
Let me try again… I’m with Knitsteel…put Mom to the mower next time she comes to help! 3 acres will take her quite a bit of time..(and she’ll know the difference between the grass and the coneflowers!) Then when she comes in afterwards, give her a nice cool drink to relax with. Then the kids will want to be with her, and then….it’s time for her to go home!
So sorry she is being relentless with the parenting thing lately. So sorry to hear about your dad, too. I wonder if there is a connection somehow? (a random, generic thought…like maybe it’s a control issue to compensate for what she can’t control?)
Your ginger twist is bright and saucy! I love it! So you’re a Mary Ann with a Ginger twist! Waahaa! And that Runi quote…my goodness, you are finding the great ones this week!
Have a good weekend! (copying my comment this time so it foesn’t get lost again!)
You are gingery! I love it!
I am sorry your mom is such a bum.
I hope these next few days FLY!!
I loved the link, and your hair looks cute!!
i love the color!!!!!!!!
That color looks great on your complexion. And IMHO you are a wonderful Mother and your children as happy and joyful as they are….are the only proof you need. You are cultivating hearts and spirit not little workers in this civilization….look into Asian cultures they raise their children the same way until school starts. They are little free birds and emotionally better for it. I studied this in the physchology (can’t spell that word) of racism. Children raised like yours are less likely to have hate in their hearts because they are emotionally secure.
I’m horrible when jeff’s gone for very long,heck, even when he’s gone for short times. He’s such a big part of my life that I feel like I’m walking around missing something.
*hugs*
I wish your father well, hopefully the doctors can take care of it.
So sorry to hear of your recent sadness. My dad had bladder cancer. He had his bladder removed and lived (cancer free) with an appliance for a long time (maybe 10 yrs) before he died. I hope your father has success with whatever treatment option he has in store.
I hate it when people mow my garden. DH mowed my zucchini a few years back. I vowed never to plant again near his beloved grass. Stupid grass. Dumb dumb.
The hair color is gorgeous!! OMG I wish I could find something equally as striking (and shiny).
Kisses and hugs to you my sweet. He’ll be home soon I’m sure.
You look gorgeous. Perfect distraction!!! I’ll be needing of of those bubble machines ASAP. Bubbles make me feel so contented. Looking at yours has relaxed me!!
I’m sorry to hear that there are some things making you feel low. You don’t deserve that.
Your hair is KICKIN’ cutie pie!! LOVE the twist, love it! I don’t know how you manage at all with Trevor gone that long. I’d go bonkers. Maybe when he gets home you can sic him on your mom. Sometimes a talking-to from a gentle but adamant man (or adult-who-is-not-also-your-child,) is what it takes to make naughty parents behave. Seriously.
And the school video made me cry, too. Beautiful. (And I think I see the resemblance you mentioned… :love: )
Excellent hair, excellent bubbles. I suggest not mowing since you only have 5 days left
Gosh, I love that Rumi. Good stuff.
I like the new look! Wow … a month is a LONG time for your husband to be away (and three hours is a long time to listen to unsolicited parenting advice). I hurt for you when I read about your mother’s criticisms. That must be painful. http://momof3feistykids.homeschooljournal.net/
I can so sympathize with you right now. My mil will be here next week and I will be going through much the same torture. I am dreading going through that while dh is gone. I am happy yours will be home soon.
JP, sorry I missed this ealier but the hair looks great! (tho I didn;t see the problem before haha)
that animal video was beautiful!
it brings back a lot of sad feelings i had in school. I was such a misfit (and not in that cool way that makes you “independent”) but in the kinda way that makes youa a failure. no mattr how hard you try or howmuch you do, you fail. it’s aweful. no kid should ever feel that way. ever.
Ginger twist suits you. You look great.
Sorry about your Grumbly section…. everything…Praying for your dad, I will sent you little red wire flags to mark your garden areas *SIGH* that stinks! Your mom… a lot like mine… *Bigger Sigh* Your children are growing happy & beautiful… you are a great mom… always seem people are ready to judge and cast stones… trust YOURSELF!!! Sadly, I had to kinda part myself a wee bit from family & freinds that always judged my choice to homeschool, parent AP and all that… they got a little to brave in remarking around my children and that just isn’t ok…some learned to hush and we enjoy their compnay again, others didn’t… BLAH!: whocares: … Bubble junkies here!
We have one of those in the brown chocolate form – aptly named “Puddin” by the kids. Best ever!!! Yes, indeed, that’s what ya’ll are missing! 
Ginger twist suits you well! Very well 
So glad the count down is on for Trev to be home and in your arms again! Woo Hoooooo!
K~